Wednesday, 25 March 2009

a really bad week emotionally

i cannot stop crying this week.. my god im not even kidding.. i need a good slap.. i dont no wots worng with me.. well i do its men.. but i cant physically go thru it all in my head again so briefly..

met a guy who seemed really quite amazing in a nut shell sed he liked me etc etc things couldnt be better.. he starts going funny.. turns out.. he was a complusive liar.. making out hes Fked up in the head and so doesnt want to speak to anyone becus hes unstable and needs to sort his life out... ok i sed to myself i can deal with this... then i find out hes in a relationship and then wen i ask why he didnt just tell me.. i get.. becuase i didnt want to be an @rsehole becuase i really like you!!

WTF!!! i feel sick.. i cant sleep i cant eat i cant do anything i feel drained.. and i hardly even new him for that long but for someone to physically be able to lie that much makes me sick.. im so upset.. i dont no wot to do with myself.. read his texts over and over his mails over and over.. managed to delete evrthing apart form his number.. i sent hima tex saying well u obv havtn got the decency to explain any further.. i cant be bothered i cant be ur friend becus i like u too much and uve hurt me too much so take care.. wot i really want to do is scream and shout and ask WHY! why lie wohy would u do that! god i really feel rubbish

how can someone have the balls to do that to someone really?! ive never felt so STUPID in my entire life..


  1. I'm so sorry to hear what's happened :(
    I know how painful it can be to realise someone you trusted lied to you so well and for so long.
    I hope you feel better soon, because he really isn't worth the tears... and at least you found out sooner rather than later.
    Take care of yourself. It's okay to feel bad, but just make sure you don't punish yourself for someone else's idiocy... stay strong xx

  2. Oh Laura poor you, what an arsehole, listen it is no reflection on you whatsoever and you deserve so much better. I know its hard but delete his number and move on please don't waste any more tears on him, the right person will be just around the corner believe me and with your new found confidence you can be strong about this.

    Remember what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.

    Email me anytime luvie.