sorrrryyyyyy

sorry everyone i havent been on here for the past 2 weeks..
i seem to have lost my way a bit and i dont know why.. managed a stay the same after my bank holiday binge which i was dead chuffed with considering all the rubbish i ate..

this week lost a lb! so i am happy with that too i just kinda feel like for the first time since ive been doing this i havent really got anywhere this month..weird???

ive met a guy too so i think this is my problem my mind seems to be elsewhere now and that not wat i want.. plus sorry to share this with you i went to the doctors begininning of the month to get the pill .. i have never ever been on the pill before so didnt really no wot to expect and MY GOD i could eat a bl00min horse!!! im starving all the time its terrible id hurd rumours about u puttin on weight being onit and i did think oh thats ppl who just need an excuse to eat really but no no it makes u starving! now im 3 weeks into it the pangs are subsiding which prob helped towards my lb loss this week! im determined to stay on track...

Ryt i go on holiday in 7 weeks... 7 weigh ins.. i wanted to have lost 3 stone by then and i now weigh 14.6.5lbs so im 2.5lbs of 3 stone so my aim is to shift that 6.5lbs and be 14stone bang on for holiday.. if i can get into the 13s that would be fabulous! so i am now firmly back on track and im not getting side tracked either for these next 7 weeks! i will be amazing wen i go on holiday :)

do u no wot i think has side tracked me a bit aswell is ppl keep saying how good i look which yes is good bt then they follow it with i dont think u need to loose anymore.. and im like urrrr yes i do but now cus so many ppl have told me and sed this to me its kinda shook my plans up a bit if that makes sence.. so i need to get back in the frame of mind where i think yes im proud of wot i have achieved so far but i intend on loosing a bit more i want to be 12stone 4 and i will be by xmas!! only 30lbs to go.. good look all and sorry for not keeping u up todate for a couple of weeks :( xxxx

bank holiday oops

oh dear i am officially not looking forward to fri WI :( ive eaten like a pig! its like bank holiday = holiday and i dont no wot the heck got into me! lol! i ate 2 chineses 2 burgers from the chippy wine and cocktails! :(:(:(:( had a sneek peak showed a 1.5lb gain.. mission is on 2 get that off and get a STS :( i tell u wot tho i did enjoy myself so its not to bad as long as i get back on track! :) xxxxxxxxxxxx

lookalike

hmmmm well i have been told now by a grand total of 10 people all different and all different locations.. as in.. freinds.. family... work collegues and now even a random person in a nightclub.. that i look like Lily Allen!! well thats absolutly histerical!! i dont at all lol!! but honeslty 10whole people have told me so now.. im beginning to get a complex about it.. i think lily allen at the moment looks very pretty and very slim.. its only becuase i have got a fringe and brown eyes lol!! anyway i thought i would put it to you.. here are some pics of lily allen and the most up to date one of me taken last weds.. come on hit me with it becus i just dont see it xxxx



Lily
Me

Lily

HMMMMM xx

WI Week 23

lost a lb this week meaning my BMI is now officially 29! how chuffed am i!! im over the moon :)
Also found out im safe in my job which is brilliant news.. for the mean time anyway!
Things are going well :) so glad its easter weekend thisweekend! 4 nice days off! bring it on lol! xxx

WI wk 22

lost 1.5 YAY im now only a lb off my BMI being 29! god thats scarey 29 is nearly healthy lol!! who would have thought it.. well its not quite there yet lol..
Had some nice NSVS this week which has cheered me up considering ive been down..
got told by one guy at work "you look like youve lost a load of weight lau" i said i have lol!
second guy today i am wearing my new MISS SELFRIDGE skinny jeans and balck tshirt boots and a mocha colour long cardi.. says to me" you looks stunning he was like really amazing this week laura if i wasnt getting married.. lolol" cheeeeeeky :P
so that made me smile anywhoo one of the girls at work is so lovly shes the only one that new wot i weighed to start and wot i weigh now etc.. infact she is the only one that knows my weight at all even my best freinds dont no and i swore i wouldnt tell them until im at goall then ill reveal my blog to them lol.. anyway jabbering on ...she says i look slim and each week even more so.. how lovley.. :)
i brought a gym ball and weights aswell yesertday becus i need to start toning igo to the gym 3 or 4 times a week but i only do cardio and for some reason i wont and cant get motivated to do sit ups etc so i figure if its at home i can just do it whilst watchin tv.. worked already did it last nyt and im in agony today lol!
ive decided this is going to be my main priority toning for the moment.. im still going to the gym and obv doin wweightwatchers but i really want to see an improvement on the tops of my arms and my belly by my holiday which is 11 weeks away so i should do hopefully by then.. im scared to death ill have saggy skin otherwise.. so here goes :) woman on amission to be a goddess by xmas lol xxx

a really bad week emotionally

i cannot stop crying this week.. my god im not even kidding.. i need a good slap.. i dont no wots worng with me.. well i do its men.. but i cant physically go thru it all in my head again so briefly..

met a guy who seemed really quite amazing in a nut shell sed he liked me etc etc things couldnt be better.. he starts going funny.. turns out.. he was a complusive liar.. making out hes Fked up in the head and so doesnt want to speak to anyone becus hes unstable and needs to sort his life out... ok i sed to myself i can deal with this... then i find out hes in a relationship and then wen i ask why he didnt just tell me.. i get.. becuase i didnt want to be an @rsehole becuase i really like you!!

WTF!!! i feel sick.. i cant sleep i cant eat i cant do anything i feel drained.. and i hardly even new him for that long but for someone to physically be able to lie that much makes me sick.. im so upset.. i dont no wot to do with myself.. read his texts over and over his mails over and over.. managed to delete evrthing apart form his number.. i sent hima tex saying well u obv havtn got the decency to explain any further.. i cant be bothered i cant be ur friend becus i like u too much and uve hurt me too much so take care.. wot i really want to do is scream and shout and ask WHY! why lie wohy would u do that! god i really feel rubbish

how can someone have the balls to do that to someone really?! ive never felt so STUPID in my entire life..

HALF WAY BABY YEAAAAAAA

helloooooo im sooo over the mooon nothing can touch me lol!

lost 2lbs this week meaning i am half way throughhhh YAY!! lost 35.5lbs with only 34.5lbs to go!!

got my 5th silver seven!!

This means i am now 14stone10.5lbs.. so 2.5lbs til my next BMI drop (which will be 29 OMFG!)

and 6.5lbs to go to 3 stone!! wooo wooo wooo

WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO lol

heres another pic i took yesterday of me in my work clothes.. bit far away.. sorry about that mom has trouble working digital things lol xxxxx

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